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i haven’t exercised in forever. not like i was ever super good at doing it regularly… but since my trainer went to a different gym and i got distracted with buying the house… it fell to the bottom of my list. so tonight i was tired of feeling like a fat slug. jeromy wasn’t up to going to the gym, so i broke out a step aerobics dvd. i’ve done these before, but it’s been a while. i got in my grove and was stepping and hopping and moving every which way. then BAM! i fall off my step. now my left knee has a nice bruise. go me.

the house is coming along nicely… the most notable difference is that we got the kitchen countertops in. it is amazing how different the kitchen looks. the flooring is going to be delayed yet again. it was supposed to be here december 30. they promise that it’ll be delivered next tuesday. i heard the same statement a couple of weeks ago… i’m not holding my breath. i’m just hoping that the stuff gets where in time for the wedding shower that jeromy’s sisters are throwing for us. we’re having it here at the house since everyone wants to see it anyways. i’ve been trying to organize and unpack during my evenings and i’m finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.

dude… jeromy and i get married in like six or seven weeks. pretty flippin’ cool. we picked up our wedding bands from the store today. we each tried them on to make sure they fit. i have to say… seeing him with his ring on made my stomach jump with excitement just a little bit. i need to take my dress to get altered… darn me and my short torso. i tried it on for the first time since september last weekend and was relieved the thing still fit. when i tried it on the first time, it fit perfect and i made a mental note that i wouldn’t be able to gain a pound. thankfully, even after the damage of the holidays, it’s all still okay.

work is awesome. even though i get a bit lonely there (it’s my own fault really – i need to get out of my office more), i feel more engaged and involved in the projects i work on. i’m learning so much and have the opportunity to see all the phases of the decision making for different jobs. my supervisor is great… he’s so patient with me and has been a great mentor over the last several months.

i’m still car-less. it sucks… but it could be worse. jeromy and i have been carpooling to and from work. i like the added face time with my sweetie… even if it means that we both have to leave town obnoxiously early in the morning. he’s never once complained about hauling me around. i simply don’t have the funds to take the beetle to a shop and brandon doesn’t have a chunk of time to come take a look at my big hunk of metal. but that’s fine… i think my mom and dad are going to let me borrow the camry for a bit until everything gets resolved.

there’s a lot on my plate, but things are going smooth. most people asked if i’m stressed… i’m not. really. i’m just overwhelmed and it’s bumming me out. i’ve lost my trademark peppiness… but i don’t think it’s the wedding or house or anything… i’m just “blah” if that makes sense. if anything, i’ve had a lot of quiet, internal reflection. it’s a turning point in my life. i like where i’m heading, so it’s not like i’m hesitant in my steps. more than anything, i think i just have a silent awe about everything that has lead me up to this point. it’s humbling. i’ve found what is most important in life. it’s a different road than i could have ever imagined, but i’ve found peace like never before. i don’t feel like a giddy bride quite yet. but i’m sure i’ll get there soon.