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i woke up this morning feeling a little blue - last week/weekend, i ate too much (i was out of town and fell victim to the oh-so-good mexican food in san antonio) and didn’t go to the gym at all.  it totally felt like i blew all of my hard work in a matter of days.  i went to the gym tonight to meet my trainer for my first measurement since i started working out three weeks ago.  despite the fact that i fell off the horse, i lost 4 pounds.  this puts me at an average of 1.33 pounds lost per week.  although this is all slightly below my goal of losing 1.5 pounds per week, i was encouraged by my measurements… 2 inches in my hips, 1 inch in each calf, 1.5 inches in my chest, 0.5 inch in my waist.  i forgot what my arms were - but you get the point.   i can tell it’s coming off my hips - i put on a pair of pants for work this morning and they sat a lot lower than usual.  it’s a small start, but at least it’s going in the right direction.  my trainer was proud and said i was exactly where i needed to be on everything.

my supervisor is out of town all this week.  he totally deserves a break, but i’m just trying to figure everything out for work.  i am glad to be challenged and to have the added responsibility when compared to my situation a year ago, but sometimes i honestly don’t know what i’m doing.

i had dinner with my family last night.  it had been a long time since i had seen them and it felt nice to be home.  the three of us had a long conversation afterwards.  i know that it’s been a while since i’ve been open with them about what all is going on in my life.  i had assumptions on what their reactions would be and chose to fight my own battles alone.  i anticipated friction and that there would be an eventual fight due to the recent awkwardness/tension.  you can only make small talk for so long, i guess.  but there was a good discussion.  nobody got mad or anything.  i was able to let some things out that i had been keeping back for a while.  they were able to tell me what their perspective was.  if anything, it was just nice to hear my parents say they loved me.  it’s a silly thing, yes.  i mean i know they love me.  but just clearing the air on some things last night was nice.  there are still some unanswered questions, but that’s okay.  fortunately for me, i have a secret affinity for the unknown.