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wrestled trying to get to sleep last night. too many thoughts to allow my mind to rest. i’ve never been one to like too many options. . . but at any rate, it’s crucial that one makes the decisions necessary to maximize each day with what really matters. i’m glad that i haven’t had to live with a big “what if?” in my life. it’s something i hope to avoid.

i don’t pray near as often as i should. but despite that, god blesses me anyways and finds ways to communicate to this flawed soul even though i don’t do my part as well as i should. i haven’t stopped smiling today. a premonition? inspiration? who knows, but it’s all the same result.

“P.S. You Rock My World” by Eels

I was at a funeral the day i realized
I wanted to spend my life with you
Sitting down on the steps at the old post office
The flag was flying at half mast
And i was thinking ’bout how
Everyone is dying
And maybe it is time to live

I don’t know where we’re going
I don’t know what we’ll do

Walked in to the thrif-tee
Saw the man with the hollow eyes
Who didn’t give me all my change
But it didn’t bother me this time
’cause i know i’ve only got
This moment
And it’s good
I went to the gas station
Old woman honked her horn
Waiting for me to fix her car

I don’t know where we’re going
I don’t know what we’ll do

Laying in bed tonight i was thinking
And listening to all the dogs
And the sirens and the shots
And how a careful man tries
To dodge the bullets
While a happy man takes a walk

And maybe it is time to live