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went to dinner with jeromy and neo last night in downtown fort worth.  neo tried to ask the waitress out.  even though she seemed mildly interested, she didn’t bite.  for a minute there, i thought he would succeed, but when she came back, she was luke warm.  jeromy and i think maybe she was already involved.  heh.  but there were lots of laughs… that, and lots of chips and salsa.  by the end of the night, i had spewed soda out my nose… i am a smooooooth operator these days. 

the chance to unwind last night was welcome - i had a hard day and left work early monday afternoon.  some stuff going on with the house that my ex husband and i had together may end up coming back to bite me.  i had signed the house over to my ex since he wanted the house (and the studio that he was running inside).  he was unable to keep things afloat and the house was foreclosed on by one of our mortgage companies after the divorce was final.  the second mortgage company now wants their money and i’ve been contacted by collections.  the fact that i have a piece of paper from my ex stating that he accepted responsibility for the house and all may not do me much good – i can’t get my name off the note.  it all depends if the mortgage company wants to sue over it or not.  i don’t know – i don’t think they can come after me too bad … i simply don’t have the money.  i know my ex doesn’t, either, so it might be like milking a dry cow for them and too much trouble.  i was initially worried that they could come after assets, but i think i’m okay.  i don’t know - it’s just all weird to me… that there isn’t protection from situations like this.  i understand what the law says, but it just seems like there should be something to protect people who end up in a tight spot beyond their control.  when i signed for the house, i thought i was in a happy marriage and that i would be in it for a long long time.  then everything happened so fast with my ex.  he wanted the house since it had his studio in it, and so, i signed it over.  i even had another paper thing signed by him at the recommendation of my attorney.  after that, i had no legal say in what happened with the property.  but i’m still legally accountable for the house.  and if it comes back to wreck my life, i’m going to be beyond ticked.  i’m hoping that it doesn’t come to that and that it’s all just empty threats at this point.  i’ll send in the paperwork i do have, though, and just hope that they stop coming after me.  i’m already paying off the furniture he ended up with and the studio equipment/materials we charged for the production company we had (that he also took).  man, i was so stupid.  but i just wanted out as fast as possible.  but it’s all hearsay.  i’m just trying to make do with the situation i have.  just all this stuff brought it all to the front of my mind and it got me feeling down.  even though i understand it wasn’t my fault, i still feel like i failed.  i took my marriage seriously and it crumbled into nothing.  and those feelings came back. 

on a lighter note, everything else is going great.  work slowed down.  this weekend, jeromy and i might be going to go see some haunted houses in the area, which will rock.  i haven’t been to one in forever.  we might bring dad along, too.  i dunno.

i need to go to the craft store and pick up some paint and board.  i’m sick of trying to find the right artwork for my living room.  i’ve found things i like, but they are out of my price range.  i need to just paint.  maybe i’ll make a michael’s or hobby lobby run this week.

we’re having a prize drawing for people that donated to united way in a couple of weeks.  one of my coworkers donated something that was given to him by a vendor or something.  he gave me a 5 lb. bar of hershey’s chocolate.  this thing is ginormously large… and it’s in my cube… staring at me.  hopefully, it will make it to the drawing in one piece so i’m not giving away a 4 lb. bar of chocolate.  heh.